Moving On

This post has been in my drafts for a while now. I've been umming and ahhing about whether to publish it for so long now, my finger has been hovering over the click button on my laptop for weeks now, but I've finally plucked up the courage to do it. There have been a few tears writing this, I even made one of my friends cry when she read the first couple of paragraphs!

But here goes...
One of the most hardest things you can do in life is move on from something that once made you happy. Whether it be a break up or even moving on in a job because of a promotion, it can be hard to let go of.

Moving on is hard process but you can turn it into a positive. They do say that as one door closes, another one opens. Sometimes it's important to grab that chance and say that you can do so much better for yourself, but more vitally, help yourself. You are an unstoppable force when you finally see that you deserve better. The confidence and the relief you feel is like no other.

For a while now I've been trying to move on from someone and it's been extremely difficult.

I've had to accept that this lad I like is happy with another girl and obviously this girl is making him happy. I've also had to accept that she is making him happy more than I obviously ever could. And that's been killing me. Big time.

Like I've said, I've grown to accept that, I've had no choice really. I could either have let myself continue to believe and cling on to the hope that something may happen if I hang on long enough, or I would have to do the most heartbreaking but wise thing - let him go. Letting go hurts less than holding on.

I need to find closure now and moving on is more important than projecting the fantasy of what might have been. It'll be one of the hardest things I'll ever do but I'm know I'm doing the right thing for myself and for my peace of mind. I hope to God it'll be worth it, it doesn't seem like it for me now but hopefully I can look back and say that I did the right thing by letting go.

I think he came into my life for a reason, maybe a lesson. A lesson that I shouldn't get my hopes up and that I should learn to accept that if things were meant to be, they would have happened a long time ago.

I let this lad be my happiness in my life for so long, he was the reason I smiled everyday, but that was where I went wrong. I shouldn't of let my life be focused on one man who doesn't care about me and never will.

Since I came to this realisation, I've started to feel a whole lot better. Don't get me wrong, I'll always have a soft spot for him, but I need to do what's best for me. I can't let this take over my life. Not any more. I wish him nothing more than happiness in his life, and happiness with (in a disgruntled voice) his girlfriend. I still despise her, in a way she kind of stole him from me, but I can't hate her too much, she doesn't know anything about me and vice-versa, I'm sure she's perfectly nice, but I think I'll stick to thinking that she's a bitch.

Before any nosey parkers ask, I'm not going to tell you who this lad is, only the two closest friends in my life know who it is, and I think it's safe to say that they're pleased that I'm finally moving on.

I'm sorry if this has seemed like such a negative post for you to read, I try and keep my posts as light hearted as I can but I just needed to get it out there. I'm moving on. And I will be much for better for doing it.

What are your ways of moving on from something or someone?

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