Lucy Mary

Lifestyle & Fashion Blogger

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It sounds like a herd of elephants are trampling all over my roof this morning. My neighbour is having his roof done and you can imagine how noisy it is in my house this morning. Still, things to do, people to see! Well, I got things to do anyway.

You will soon see what I mean in an upcoming post. But it got very messy very quickly!
Right, now that I've cleaned up, I need to get changed and put some odd socks on, as you do -
Anti Bullying Week means quite a lot to me, as you'll find out on Wednesday...ooh, I'm being very mysterious aren't I?!
Aww bless! It really made me smile! I'm so glad they seen it because I wouldn't be where I am today without their help and care.
Ok, I have just seen something that has made me too excited for next Summer -
You got to love those toys!

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I know we should spread kindness every day, but I kind of think this day is a day to remember that we should be doing that!
I've been to the gym and now I'm sat on the settee, puffing my Colomycin and watching Lorraine on ITV. I can already foresee this being quite a lazy Tuesday. Ah well, I'm due a lazy day!

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Here's a little bit of Wednesday wisdom to start your day off! A little motivational quote is good to get your day off to a good start. Right, let's get motivated to get to work. I really could do with staying at home today.
After 45 minutes in the chemist waiting for my prescription, I'm home and am now on the treadmill at 6pm. Why do I do this to myself?
It's 6pm and I feel exhausted. I think my bed may be calling me about 10pm.

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It's on the news this morning that the John Lewis advert has been released for us all to see -

I've seen 1 out of 2 of these adverts, now, when will the Coca Cola truck drive on my TV?
It's been an incredibly long day in work, I need some tea, or better still, vodka. I definitely need vodka after what I've just spotted in my bedroom -
I know I can't and I'll refuse to sleep in my bedroom tonight unless I see this spider disappear out of my bedroom with my own eyes.
*Update - he's gone, I got my Mam to get rid of him out of the window when she came home from work!
Now that's settled, let's cwtch down for the evening.

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It's Children in Need day and I'm kind of looking forward to a completely bonkers day in school with the kids doing crazy activities. I may not sound so happy at 3:00pm today mind.
After a mad day in work and being stuck in traffic for 45 minutes, seeing three cute dogs walk on the path passing my car melted my heart. Dogs really do cheer you up.
This is what happens when your class has a free day and does a lot of Pudsey drawings and colourings.

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It's 9:30am, I'm just getting up and I literally haven't comprehended of how much I have to do before I go out about lunch time. Oh dear. So, where am I going I hear you ask?

It needs sorting out. I'm spotting quite a few split ends and it just needs a trim, plus a colour.
I'm stuck in traffic on the bridge right now. Then my Mam informs me that Ryan Giggs is turning on the Christmas lights in town. Nah, I'm not staying for that, I'll be hungry after getting my hair done. Food is more important. Food always comes first.
Yes, I've had food but more importantly my hair has been cut, coloured and styled to within a inch of it's life - and I'm too happy with the results!
Yes, I'm happy. Now it's time to settle for Saturday evening. But before I go, it's a special day for one of my besties -
I hope she has a fabulous day!

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I got a busy Sunday planned. But here I am, lying in bed, debating what to wear for later on. Yes, I'm off to a christening! It's my best friend Carla's little boy Theo. A nice service and food and drink afterwards, I honestly can't fault it.
A lovely service (yes, I eventually decided what to wear!) now it's time to eat this bad boy -

It was lush. An extra large dinner too. I ate it all apart from one Yorkshire pudding. In my defence, the Yorkshire's were big. The photo doesn't do them justice.
I'm feeling very content on this Sunday evening. I am now preparing myself for this TV show to make it's comeback -
I've been waiting for this for so long!

First things first, thank you to Kayla for nominating me for this award! I absolutely love the concept of this blogging award. The Flawesome Blogger Award was created by Sophia Ismaa and it aims for the blogger to dissect their flaws and recognise the positives of those flaws.

When I first started writing this post, I couldn't think of three flaws that I could write about. Purely because I have so many and it was hard to find the positives in all of them! One of my biggest flaws is paranoia. I'm an incredibly paranoid person sometimes but there's no positives in being paranoid, see my problem?!

But I eventually whittled it down to three! Here are the positives and negatives of my flaws -

Negatives - I inherit my stubbornness from my Mam. I won't admit when I'm wrong sometimes and I won't say sorry if I don't need to (but I will if I know I'm in the wrong). This is a trait that can be seen as a negative by people, but not necessarily. Also, stubborn people persevere with a lot of situations, which can be seen as quite annoying to others.
Positives - Being stubborn means I know my own mind and am confident in saying what needs to be said. I know what I want and don't want in my life. Being stubborn means I can stick to my own values and not be swayed by others in regards to making decisions! I'm better at persevering too, so that means I'm no quitter!
Negatives - Oh god, overthinking is a badass mind killer. I'm a massive overthinker, I overthink the overthought things. Overthinking makes me doubt my decisions and it makes me feel uncertain about everything I do and say. It really wrecks my mind and I can't concentrate when I overthink things. Once I start overthinking, it feels like the problem gets bigger and bigger when it needn't be. At the end of the day, I'm just overcomplicating things!
Positives - It took me a while to figure out if there are any positives to being an overthinker. But I suppose overthinking means I think about every possibility and every answer to my problem or situation, no matter how good or bad. It means I'm working my brain and using any little problem solving skills to good use.
Negatives - I get too attached to people and all the things around me that I love eg pets, my job etc. It then breaks my heart when that person leaves my life and I go to pieces. That doesn't do my mental health any favours really! I feel like nothing or nobody can replace the loss.
Positives - I suppose being too attached shows I care and will do anything for them. A little selflessness creeps into play and I'll always be there for that person no matter what and under any circumstances.
This is actually quite a good way to look at my flaws and to put a positive spin on them!
These are the 10 bloggers I would like to do this challenge:

Megan Elizabeth
So what are the rules?
- Link back to the creator and the person who nominated you.
- Display the award image in the post.
- List three of your flaws and turn them into strengths.
- Nominate 10 other people to take part!
And it's as simple as that!

Bullying makes you do a lot of soul-searching, but not for the right reasons. Bullying makes you popular, but not for the right reasons.

Being bullied made me feel like I was an outsider for so long in school. I wanted to act like everyone else, but I knew that I couldn’t and the worst thing is - I was made to think there was something wrong with me. I was made to feel that the person I was brought up to be was uncharacteristic and just plain weird. I wasn’t one for smoking behind the trees in school (even if I was healthy I wouldn’t touch a cigarette) or walking around with a huge group of my classmates who I barely talk to for no apparent reason than to talk shit about others. I had more respect for the people who I was going to sit next to in lessons, even if I didn’t talk to them. At the end of the day, it’s about morals and values.

There’s always those expressions and clichΓ©s society use to tell you how to tackle bullying and what you should do if you are in that demoralising situation, whether it be at school or even a workplace.

“Tell the headteacher, they’ll sort it out for you” - no they bloody won’t!
“Our school has a zero tolerance to bullying” - yeah, alright then!

Now, I can’t talk about bullying in the workplace because I haven’t had much experience in it (thankfully) I can only draw from my (bad) bullying experience in school.

Society stresses to the victims of bullying that it makes you stronger. Does it though?

It depends on the person. I mean, I can only speak for myself with what I think about how bullying has affected me.

Bullying made me a shadow of my former primary school self. My confidence took a nose dive and my self-esteem hasn't truly recovered. Which is unfortunately quite sad.

I still get flashbacks from my play back through my mind like a old video tape whenever I take a selfie, ones which are particularly close up in the facial department. I think back to all the shocking and belittling things my supposed 'friends' used to say to me about my appearance, my looks and just about me in general. All the vile, humiliating remarks they said to me not just online on MSN, but to my face too and also behind my back. Even though I always found out, well gossip in school can spread around like wild fire. That's where the low self-esteem really takes hold of my mind. Also a strong sense of paranoia.

I suffer with terrible paranoia. I’m always wondering why people look at me randomly in the street if I’m walking past them or what people think of my latest selfie which I’ve posted in social media. If people look at me and laugh, I’m wondering if they’re laughing at me maliciously. I know, that sounds quite bad. It’s not that I’m self centred, it’s the result of being ridiculed in school for many years.

Will I ever 'cure' my paranoia? Only time will tell, I hope I can shut out those feelings and finally be able to feel more confident and less anxious about what others think.

Let's try and end this on a positive note! Halfway through the post, I asked myself the question if being bullied makes you stronger. I definitely think it can in some way. It can make you incredibly strong minded and more empathetic towards others. With me, I'm very protective and will defend my friends and family till kingdom come. I don't want them to go through what I went through and also feel the same way as I did in school. I can't bear the thought of that happening.

But if you are being bullied, please don't feel your worthless or unworthy, because you are NOT. You are the better person they those bullies will ever be. You will go on to do bigger and better things than they will, then you can rub it in their faces when you've got a high paying job and their sat on  their arses at home watching Jeremy Kyle.


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It's a start of a new week, I'm making the most of these next two days as I'm back in work on Wednesday. My lord the thought doesn't bear thinking about.
I'm laughing to myself right now! All because of a parcel man -

The fact that I was walking up a road which I don't live in, he recognised me as he must have delivered god knows how many parcels to me before, decided to give me my parcel (if you're interested, was a Boux Avenue parcel) before I got home to save me answering the door, or to save him a trip to my house, however you want to look at it, just made me laugh! That is great postal service in my opinion!
Ok, let's go and get changed out these clo- hang on a minute! What's this outside my bedroom window?!
Like seriously?! I know the builders would have to be contortionists to see into my bedroom but still!
It's evening time now, I've had a good day blogging and catching up on some things, now it's time to hear fireworks going off in the houses surrounding mine -
I hope everyone stays safe on this Bonfire Night!

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I promised myself I wouldn't let this happen, but it's happened - 

But to be fair, it was for my Mam. I read the words of this card and it just spoke volumes and I knew I had to buy it for her. So she better appreciate it!
It's 3:00pm, I've done quite a few bits and pieces but I need to get a blog post ready for tomorrow and I haven't edited one picture for it yet. Oops!
But before I get on with that task, can we just appreciate Boux Avenue for a second?!
Ok, enough admiring, let's get on.
I've managed to get those pictures edited and my post is ready for tomorrow. Now I can relax and watch the football, come on Red men!
*Update - a 2-0 loss.
My word that was shocking. That was such a poor performance. I am not in a good mood now!
But now it's time to cry at some amazing people -
This program always makes you realise that there are some genuinely inspirational people out there. This show really does put things into perspective. I got my tissues ready!
I'm now off to bed knowing I got a 6am alarm awaiting me. Oh god.

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Wow, that 6am alarm was not easy. I can barely see I'm that sleepy. But I'm getting a little peed off at my Instagram right now, not a good start to my Wednesday morning -
I've never been one to constantly moan about the algorithm but it really is getting on my tits at the moment. Just show my picture to people Insta! I beg of you!
And another thing is doing my head in this morning, well, it has been since I first seen it last week -
I can't be the only who feels betrayed by this?!
My first day back in work was good. It was nice to see the teachers and kids. Now I'm off to the GP to get my prescription after they messed it up AGAIN.
Oh god, it's gotten around. I don't know why I am so surprised and coy about it all. It was published on Facebook for f**k sake! But it's nice that awareness of CF is getting around!

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I was half asleep eating my Shreddies this morning. I'm so glad it is Friday tomorrow! I need to catch up on sleep on the weekend, even though I've had good night's sleeps lately, I feel like I'm constantly catching up on sleep (if that makes any sense to you all!)
Right, I need to go to work before I drop off on the settee.

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I know it's Friday, but I'm feeling in a bit of a ranty mood so far this morning - and it's only 7:30am.
Instagram is really starting to wind me up. Why can't it just let my followers see my photo's? Is that too much to ask?! Not just for me, but for other's who feel the same way as me! Ah well, let's get work over with as by half past 3 today, my weekend begins!
It's a good job there's nobody around in the car park, I don't think they would have appreciated hearing my singing voice so early in the day! I'm tempted to buy tickets for Spice Girls when they go on their reunion tour soon, but I'm not sure any of my friends would want to go! Hmm, maybe a little gentle persuasion is needed on my part to get one of them to go with me?

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I'm up a little early for a Saturday morning. But for a good reason. Right, I've just drove to where I need to be, I've parked up. Now if you'll excuse me a minute, I've got to say a little goodbye -

Ok, that might sound weird to some of you. But I've had a few people agree with me with this! So why I am getting a little teary saying goodbye to a car which I have owned for three years? Well...
May I introduce Rio?! Yes, I have a new car! It's a lovely car to drive and I'm looking forward to the next few years to it being sat outside my house. So what is my first trip in this car I hear you ask?! Morrison's. Not exactly an exciting trip, but still, I need to get used to it! A little drive to get some food is always good!
We're not even halfway through November and Christmas is already gracing my mind. I really have been sucked into the November Christmas hype, how the hell have I managed to be so drawn in already? Hmm.

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It's a day we all need to remember those who gave their lives for us -

It's such a sad day but it's good that we all remember those who fought for our freedom.
I can't be the only person who does this when they buy a new car?!
I think is what we can now call the modern day era. All I wanted to do when I first got my new car is to input my favourite radio stations and connect my phone via Bluetooth!
Right, it's time for football, see you in 90!
*Final score - a 2-0 win!
Ok, you'll have to excuse me, but I'm currently drooling at this moment -
Those foot long pigs in blankets look absolutely banging! I can't wait to eat a couple of those on Christmas Day!

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